addicted to
 endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection




tagboard ;
guestbook

i'm not here to win

i'm here to leave a legacy

run


sigh

i traded all of THAT for this. worth it? i can't help but look back thinking that it wasn't worth it. yet i don't know if i'd have liked it if i was still as crammed with stuff. why is power and position so appealing to me... i wanted to make the difference, be the difference. things i had so much passion for, things i really really put my all into. things i was actually proud to be part of because i built everything i was standing on, on my OWN. but now, when i've taken the path less travelled, is it my fault that i don't see results? is it my fault that my stupid muscles seem to be permanently damaged? so much has been traded for this. i never actually had the choice did i. but maybe i could have tried harder to convince them. maybe, just maybe...

choir concert was quite good. obviously can't be compared to swingles or king singers. hahah. but that's cos they're like professionals. the peichun people were so adorable. joo and mave did great (: and omg kat's voice is very nice.

met amanda and bonkie! bonkie looks so different. didn't recognise her at first. ahah i wished her happy belated birthday. and she did the same to me. she's my fwah birthday twin. okay then met more fielers and classmates and other school people. was so glad i was allowed to go lead cheers. i cheered harder than i've ever cheered. because i was afraid that i'd never get the chance to do that again. was simply magical. cheering. hm okay i probably sound a bit wonky here.

took some pics with 310ers. ahha fangxun, sianying and i were the black trio. fangxun should wear skirts more often. and that top looked good.

oh training at nie before that was a little traumatic. weird weird weird scary people. let's just leave it at that.

okay i am tired and i hate socialising actually. so i really don't want to invite anyone to our whatever natl day celebs at home. i dislike dressing up and meeting people! can i not invite anyone? bah.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.
put on her shoes at [12:05]
and took [20050806] strides

it's the passion that drives you